something about the weather today made me think about you more than usual. i took a bus after college to come see you which was difficult as it always hurts extra when i think about where it happened. i stood and watched the birds for a bit and talked to you (well i spoke aloud to myself so got lots of looks from strangers but i really really don’t care). i miss you everyday. whenever i have dreams about you i wake up feeling weird and the whole day feel as if you’re following me around, which in a strange way is quite comforting. i wrote a spoken word piece for an exam at school about you, my teacher loved it and i passed with full marks! even from beyond the rainbow you’re helping me. the beacon feels like so long ago and yet the pain feels as fresh as it did then. i just miss you. love talula 🦄