the sun is shining properly today for the first time in ages, flowers are growing again and they always make me think of you, especially the dandelions. this time of year always hurts for more reasons than i can name, so much has changed these last few years, ive changed so much, but sometimes a certain smell or taste or feeling will take me all the way back to 5 years ago, and all i can do is sit with the memories and let them take me where i need to go. it still hurts el, but i have learnt that in order for spring to bloom, you must first accept the winter. there is so much out there el, i intend to find it, and i'll carry you with me everywhere. i hope the sun is shining wherever you are :)